ugh I don't know y I even bother anymore

ugh I don't know y I even bother anymore .....

~* This time it's for real not some joke I'm tired of playing around with ppl I mean this I'm really leaving not running away or dieing well maybe dieing but not just yet I'm jus leaving this site nd the internet I can't do it anymore theres no drama or anything but I think my mom is rite the internet has srly drived me crazy so my page will still be there but I won't I took to long making it jus to throw it away like tht no way buddy so yeah ....

~* I have met some amazing ppl on this site nd I love it dearly nd thts y it's hard to leave it but u know I have to I'm too scared to keep making friends cuz in th end I lose them nd they turn out jus like my Ex nd I don't want tht it sucks yes I know but it better fr me I can't go threw th fucking crying again it's not healthy fr me once I cryied fr 2 days straight nd I ended up bleeding from one of my eyes nd I'm not lieing well anyways I jus wanted to say y I was leaving not like it matter to anyone anyways ....

~* I'm going to miss my friends tht I had even if was only fr a moment but they were there fr me wen I needed them nd I feel like a bitch fr leaving them but trust me u don't want me as a friend I take things way to far nd I think thts th reason I lose everyone nd everything I love so I rather not keepin being on this site because of it blah my life is srly over nd I don't think I'll carry with out all u ppls but what happens wen I lose u later on I would be more crushed more then now *sighs* ....

~* Well my ex friends I'll be leaving u kno nd yes it hurts I don't think I'll be able to hold bck not gettin on but I have to if theres a chance I get weak nd get one jus know it's only fr a day not fr ever I can't fight th weakness at times nd hopefully I'll learn how to I love you guys more then anything but trust me I bring pain nd lots of it nd I don't wanna do tht to u I rather do it to myself not to speical ppl like u who deserve better then me as ur friend *sobbs* ....

~* Bianca I FUCKING LOVE YOU ... I'm so mad nd upset but I have to leave you my special sweetheart I can't keep acting scared to tlk to u cau at times I don't know wht I'm saying nd thts y I get in trouble with my mom nd other ppl sweetie pie I love you nd I hate tht I'm leaving u but trust me love it's whts best fr u my sweet nd wen I come bck even if it's fr a day I'll make sure tht ur th frist one I take my time to note u brang me so much joy nd smiling nd I know I'm a bitch nd all tht but believe I love you more then u'll ever know jus trust me with tht *kisses*

~* Jomaris HUNNY I'm gonna miss u A LOT u were my personal music helper nd really did come in handy as soon as I get th Aiden cd I'm gonna come on jus to tell u nd ask u fr th songs nd get off it's tht easy rite?!?! .... ur so awsome nd I'm so glad we tlked u seem really popular nd to cool to tlk to me but yet u still did tht made me feel so loved nd specail ugh I'm gonna miss u SWEETIE! ur th best I LOVE YOU *hugs*

~* Erin, Stephaine, Bdenbear, Tara, Meghan, all my other friend u guys rawk nd so does ur fics nd I love then tehe I'm gonna miss u guys a lot nd yeah I was not tht much of a friend to u guys but I tried at times nd I LOVE YOU so much tehe u rawk nd ur always in my heart .... well don't think u won't tlk to me anymore u still will jus not all th time once in a great while u'll talk to me so it's all good rite??!? like lets say u tlk to me tomorrow u probably won't tlk to me untill 2 or 3 weeks from them thts not bad I jus wanna be aline nd not wanna hurt no one byez I'll tlk to u all wen I feel in th mood or rly bored so yea tht one of th reason y I woun't delete my page yet jus in case I wanna tlk but idk bout tht .....

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	hellaradloser: 10/28/2007 6:28 PM This is breaking my heart. It really is. Don't worry, I understand what you're going through and know why it is that you're leaving. I'll miss you. You know that. You're one of the few people I've loved this much. Anytime you want to talk I'll be here. Because I love you....and have no life. =] jaykay It's gonna be really hard coming home from a bad day and not know you'll be here to talk to you. It's the best time when I get to talk to you. I love you. Never forget that.
	samanthapunk: 10/28/2007 7:10 PM Okay, even though i didn't really get a chance to know u i will still miss you.... :( i hope u feel better.
	Normal is VASTLY overrated: 10/28/2007 9:29 PM i'll miss u i no we never talked ALOT but i still consider you one of my best buds on here so if u need to go just no that were still here for you. love ya Sarah
	kgerard: 10/28/2007 9:32 PM thnks!! oh I posted my other journal plz!! take a read it's before thins one =P
	sb68: 10/28/2007 9:33 PM aww you shouldnt leave. who else am i going to talk to ALL the time haha. (which was nice btw). i'll miss you. =(
	musicfreesme: 10/28/2007 10:19 PM nooo u cant leave! your like one of my best friends on here, i would really miss u :[ and i dont want u to your fanfics, there amazing! please dont go, ily kat!!
	mcrand30obsessed: 10/29/2007 11:39 AM Hey, who else am I going to talk to on here about The Whitest Kids U Know?!
	vengeanceluver: 10/29/2007 1:58 PM ~OMFG KAT! NO you CAN'T leave!!! NOOO WAY!! Please don't leave hun!! I am going to miss you like HELL! So please reconsider!! And no I am not too cool at all to talk to you! you are the AWESOME one!! Please son't leave me! Please! Cries
	kavoru: 10/29/2007 8:30 PM I don't want you to leave Nooo!!!! :'(
	Kesem: 10/30/2007 1:13 AM Geecookie you can't leave! I'll miss you sooooo much! Don't leave don't leave don't leave!